Life & Feather Update

Ha. Ha. Ha.
Success. Dedication.
I laugh in their faces.
Because that's easier than facing them and admitting that I let both of them down.
I have not been writing.
I have not been cleaning.
I have not been eating slowly.
I have failed in every way in all of my feathers. Big. Fat. Fs.

But you know what the funny thing is?

Somehow, I don't feel bad.

And that, strange as it is, is most definitely a good thing.

You know what it means?

My perfectionism is loosening its constricting grip. I'm learning to work with myself and be happy with myself.

I've failed, yet I don't feel like a failure. I feel like my life is more under control than it has been in a long time. My room has boxes and crates and bags and clothes everywhere in preparation for moving, moving OUT and I feel oddly calm and controlled.

What is this? Am I maturing? Is that what this is?

Or am I perhaps getting used to my failure?

I don't know. Either way, I feel like I'm no closer to figuring out what this blog is supposed to be doing.   Or, for that matter, what I'm supposed to be doing with this blog. But the feather thing is, perhaps, going to take a sabbatical.

I would appreciate so much if whoever reads this would take the time to comment on what kind of blog you think I should write. A personal/lifestyle blog? A project blog? A beauty blog? What am I? 

Love you all.

Feather Update for August

Perhaps I should do this monthly? Anyways, here's my feather update.

Feather #1: Write at least one chapter on something every week.

I have had every intention of doing this feather, however after the first successful week, we went on vacation and I just got back ... umm ... five days ago, so I should probably get on it again. But I want to write, and I will, I have confidence. Grade: A-

Feather #2: Spend 10 minutes every day tidying my room

For some reason, until I read my post again, I thought this said before bed. And that didn't work at all. I seemed to always get to bed too tired, too late, too uninspired, etc. But my room has been staying rather clean and the idea of taking a little time each day has mostly worked. I have not done this every day, but I've done it more than I used to. So I'd give myself a B- on this. 

Next feather will have something to do with food, as that has been out of control lately, but that'll be one long, juicy post so I'm saving it for later.